I received my first call from my homefinder today.
I just happen to be home sick with a very bad stomach virus, cramping, weak, nauseous.
I spoke with a social worker. The little girl was two and had open heart surgery as a baby, but was developing normally. She is receiving a lot of early intervention at her current day care, which was not far from our home.
I had to pause and really think about the age...2 and a half. She had been with her current foster mother for a year and a half, but unfortunately was removed because her bio parents are bringing accusations up against the foster mother and they wanted her removed.
This was the one thing about it that got to me. I had a lot to consider. Overall, today, with being home sick and weak...I am not in top form to take a two year old that is very upset and "acting out." I may not be able to give her all she is needing right now. My heart breaks for her, it does. I also have to consider my job...and getting involved in a situation with bio parents who may be on the "war path," due to having their child taken out of the home.
I had to decline.
I felt badly and called my homefinder immediately. She reassured me that I made the best decision for me. She also said that I have to take my job into consideration and that the social worker was already calling other foster parents and not to worry. She understood.
I felt better after speaking with her. This is another step along the journey.